Into the FogIt starts around the edges of lifeOne too many names forgotten One too many appointments missed Something bought at the store that is already on the shelf It disturbs at first Soon with life's stress family, the bills, the details It becomes understandable expected and then dismissed With time more is excused until a new skill is learned It gathers further into life a mist that obscures the world Looking for a car no longer owned Knocking on a door for a friend moved away years ago Second set of checks sent for the months bills Unexplained layoff, sad dismissal Harder to excuse, to ignore Anger and fear create more desperate excuses The skill perfects Liberty protected Control maintained The fog is apparent to all now Family confronts and accuses The car keys are gone The check book is missing Doorways are blocked Strangers come in to clean and cook without invitation or acceptance Doctors are visited Family becomes rude making demands, angry threats apologies and tears All talk around you not to you Control slips away The fog envelopes now Only a vague view of the outside and less to see inside The constant feeling of being lost The need to find something, someone Time and people a blur One moment the same as another One person no different than any confusion almost a pain People stop you, pull at you you get angry you fight back more angry people tugging and pulling There is fog in all directions now All light that is you is dissipated in a billowing mist of fears a listless query to find a way into clarity and light Where is my wife She died four years ago Where an I Oakview Nursing Home What time is it You just asked that What are you doing Feeding you What happened to me No answer, only the fog |